Carey Mercer, the force behind Frog Eyes -- one of my favorite bands and the band that produced the Vague Space #1 track of 2010 ("A Flower in a Glove") -- has cancer, but he's been in treatment, he's just out of radiation therapy I believe and he tweeted that he's feeling much better and starting work on a new album (!) even, which is great, really great. When the news came out a month or two ago that he was sick and he would be self-releasing Carey's Cold Spring, it was thought by some (including me) that it might be the last we ever hear from him musically. So his tweet last week is good news, unless I'm misinterpreting. You get to a point in your over-scheduled life where you can only pay half-attention to half of the things that come across your eyes and I'm long since past that point (a big part of the reason why the postings here have gotten beyond sporadic). Anyway, if you are a fan of Frog Eyes, or beautiful solemn music at all, please go to his bandcamp site and pay $10 for the download (at least, you can name your price) because all proceeds are going to Carey. There's no label or anything involved, this is just him at his most intimate and most beautiful. And you can get it today. Actually I got it today so I've only listened a couple times but so far it's beautiful. And the closing track is called "Claxxon's Lament", a long loved track of mine that was always officially unrecorded but I heard the version that his former Frog Eyes and Swan Lake bandmate Spencer Krug (Moonface, Wolf Parade, Sunset Rubdown) sung and I always loved it. But the recording he does for the new album is incredible and I heard it on Friday when I pre-ordered the album and I couldn't stop listening. Nobody will die.
On Saturday, I went to the viewing for a friend of mine from high school, a close friend from high school, but we had long since lost touch so it didn't really hit me too hard, just more a lament of the sadness. She had a pretty amazing adult life from what I understand from those who kept in touch and she unfortunately leaves a 4-year-old daughter behind. Cancer. Of course. Nobody will die.
On Sunday, I found out that my best friend's godmother died, a woman who I'd spent some time with but not significant time although I'm very close to her brother and two children, and everyone was pretty devastated. Not sure how old she was but she was too young, certainly, around the age of my parents, and it was sudden if not completely unexpected. Nobody will die.
Also on Sunday, I found out more tragic news in what happened to a work acquaintance's child and even though I don't know him as well as the others, it's almost more tragic. I don't have any words for any of this, just laments. Nobody will die.
I'm not a religious person and I'm strongly of the belief that when you die you die, there is no beautiful afterlife (or tragic one), it just ends, so you do not and cannot lament. Makes me certainly want to live every day to the fullest, an attitude I have embraced particularly over the past year. Work, worry, stress over the little things... just do your best to enjoy yourself every day you can and the rest of it, it's all meaningless, forget it. Everyone will die.
But not being a religious person makes it difficult when people die for I feel I can offer no words of comfort, no "they are in a better place now" and those words certainly will not comfort me if someone close to me dies. They cannot lament but we can. And it's not freaking easy, religious or not. It's basically shit. Everyone will die.
It was early in the morning when the battle horse arrived.
And he embraced Sarah, the bride of his old age
And Sarah hugged Billy, who was born of her sweet womb.
And nobody will die
And nobody will die
And nobody will die
Until I’ve got money in my hand...
It was silence that begot them, the purpose of their ways
Lord, the Father, the Beggar, and his hands
From that time, the post will pull, and push against the sky
Oh baby, I know the night’s too slow,
And nobody will die ...
(below is an older version sung by Carey and Spencer's version as well -- if you want Carey's new version (much better than the one below) please go to his bandcamp page and listen... I can't stop, it's amazing).