Foot Update, The Latest

So a couple weeks ago, I had a great week -- finally -- after nearly 7 months of nonstop shooting burning pain from the big toe on my right foot, or more specifically, the nerve on said foot, the result of a botched surgery to correct a problem that I can't even remember I had anymore.  But anyway, had a great week of bearable pain in Atlantic City and the Blue Claws and a party at my friend's house and a trip to see Moonface at the Bowery Ballroom.  My life returned to some semblance of normalcy and fun for the first time in 7 months.  Then the day after the Moonface concert a rash that had seemed to be forming on my foot got much much worse and by the following day, I had red seeming welts all over the bad foot.  My first thought was that the cream that I was using to quell the nerve pain was causing the problem.  Of course, the nerve pain cream was the only thing that made the extreme pain bearable through the day.  Not good.  I was seeing a new doctor the next day about the nerve problem, he took one look at the massive disaster that was my foot and pretty much ordered me to a dermatologist and to stop using that cream.  He scheduled a surgery for the nerve pain -- lumbar sympathetic block (basically an injection in my spine) -- and left me on my own. 

I saw the dermatologist on Thursday, who prescribed a new cream, this one for the rash, but of the hundreds of explanations for why the rash appeared, he couldn't confirm that my pain cream was causing it.  It could be that the skin was so sensitive and the immune system so weakened in the foot due to the pain cream that I caught something.  His cream helped with the rash but the lack of the nerve pain cream by now was causing incredible pain to the point that a week after the Moonface concert joy was one of the most painful weeks of this entire dreadful experience that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.  Yes, not even Rudnick.  Anyway, on the bright side the rash on the foot started going away.  And then started appearing elsewhere.  First a spot on my right arm.  Then a full-on rash on my left arm.  Then a disastrous looking mess on my neck.  Then an itchy hell on my left foot.  The cream got rid of these new outbreaks within a few days but I was an itchy, horrible mess and I couldn't leave the house as much for the rash as for the nonstop pain in the foot.  The foot was clear enough and the pain was great enough that I went back on the nerve pain cream.  Things normalized for about a quarter of a day, when I went to watch my friends race in the Rugged Maniac in Englishtown, NJ, a race I'd signed up for with them back in January, back when the prospect of not being able to run again by July seemed laughable.  Now, I'd give anything just to be pain free again, forget the stupid running.  Anyway, after a somewhat painful day walking around the Maniac and a less painful night back at my friend's house drunk as shit, I returned home to find huge throbbing blisters all over the side of the bad foot, right by the nerve that is in so much pain.  Seriously.  2" long blisters.  Most disgusting thing I've ever seen in my life.  On my fucking foot. 

Went back to the dermatologist on Monday, he doesn't know what the fuck is going on.  Could be the nerve pain cream again.  Could be the rash cream.  Could be the interaction of the two.  Could be walking around the Maniac with weakened/chapped skin.  Could be lepresy.  That last one wasn't suggested but that's what it feels like right now.  He took a sample of the now deflated skin to send to the lab and I haven't heard the results yet.  But now I have red, scarred, deflated blisters and an open wound on the side/bottom of the big toe, incidently the only parts of the big toe that were pain free for the past 7 months.  And I've stopped the pain cream again, so as I write this... lots of pain.  In the meantime, I did have the surgical procedure -- injection in the spine -- and while it's too early to tell definitely and he'll likely want to do it again, I'd be hard-pressed to say there's been much improvement.  I see this doctor again tomorrow, so I don't know what's going on exactly but this may have been my last hope.  There may actually be a little improvement in the overall pain level compared to other "no nerve pain cream" times but with the gaping wound on the side of the foot, it's tough to tell right now.  Anyway, I think this will be my last post for the week.  Unless there's some huge comeback from Vincenzo Nibali in the Tour de France, which would make me happy, at least for a brief moment. 

In closing, fuck all doctors.  They don't know shit about shit.  I don't know why I keep listening.

• Download Sun Kil Moon - "Neverending Math Equation".mp3

I'm the same as I was when I was 6 years old
And oh my God I feel so damn old
I don't really feel anything
On a plane, I can see the tiny lights below
And oh my God, they look so alone
Do they really feel anything?
Oh my God, I've gotta gotta gotta gotta move on
Where do you move when what you're moving from
Is yourself?
The universe works on a math equation
that never even ever really ends in the end
Infinity spirals out creation
We're on the tip of its tongue, and it is saying
We aint sure where you stand
You aint machines and you aint land
And the plants and the animals, they are linked
And the plants and the animals eat each other
Oh my God and oh my cat
I told my Dad what I need
Well I know what I have and want
But I don't know what I need
Well, he said he said he said he said
"Where we're going I'm dead."

Comments

[juicy couture handbag]

thank u for your sharing!

[abercrombie deutschland]

Es gibt definitiv viele Einzelheiten wie das zu berücksichtigen. Das mag eine schöne Stelle zu vermitteln, bis sein. Ich liefere die Ideen über die allgemeine Inspiration, aber klar gibt es Fragen wie die, die Sie liefern bis an die Stelle ein sehr mächtiger Faktor in vertrauenswürdigen Treu und Glauben arbeiten werden.

[envittese]

qDbzfsHwnv sac lancel qEaglmHvpj sac à main lancel dPjmzdFjzb solde lancel kTxiraXxfd http://sacs-a-mainlancel.webnode.fr/#61178 lGrsvzRkcv sneakers isabel marant aUruyoDzih basket isabel marant hMuydrKebp chaussure isabelle marant eWrankYbgf http://bottesdggspascher.monwebeden.fr/#64144 eZobdoYgzv louboutin pas cher oEebvyFbki louboutin chaussures nNewgsMsbc chaussures louboutin soldes nUlymbAshx http://chaussure-louboutinpascher.webnode.fr/#51299

[#nbhiortn[oihabnzgqv]]

oGjijmCbwj mulberry bags zAtgnxEfti mulberry bags outlet tAnldmExkm mulberry outlet online
uKwfvrAttd isabel marant sneakers oJmruoDewy chaussures isabel marant wZmvpnLqmx isabel marant baskets
mPkfxhQlsz christian louboutin shoes vEpgebQltx cheap christian louboutin shoes aBdohnRphk christian louboutin shoes cheap bHnbarFaim http://cheaplouboutinshoessale.info/christian-louboutin-flats-c-13.html

[tauctuape]

wizsi fitflop sale fvlpj http://fitflopsingaporeshoes.snappages.com/ zizzy sneakers isabel marant wfrnq isabel marant chaussures qkygc bottes isabel marant mxftk http://frisabelmarantsneakers.bricoblog.fr/ scegi fitflop sale uqlsr http://fitflopsmallsaustralia.weebly.com/ cqffg fitflop malaysia zlukc http://fitflopmalaysiasaless.weebly.com/ gmvgh insanity workout wxmvj insanity workout australia smryc http://insanityworkoutsaleau.moonfruit.com/ vrzzz fitflop xgies http://fitflop-singapore.webspawner.com/ wujcu fitflop rsfsa http://fitflopssaleau.moonfruit.com/

[tauctuape]

yltus http://botasuggoutlet2.webnode.es/ cpkvz fitflop srrjv fitflop malaysia outlet oihsr http://fitflopmysalesa.snappages.com/ wjcuq http://insanityworkoutsale.moonfruit.com/ sgqdq http://jiimmychooshoes.moonfruit.com/ ruast http://ghdaustralian.moonfruit.com/ ougry http://christianllouboutinshoes.moonfruit.com/ ohjjv fitflops xmcnm fitflops australia zoopw http://fitflopsflipshoes.snappages.com/ ulvuu fitflop rivgg fitflop singapore zbran fitflops sale wwlad http://fitflopsghotsale.info/fitflop-walkstar-slide-c-24.html zfwsh fitflop bcpkb fitflop malaysia outlet nelyh http://fitflopsmysale.info/fitflop-hyker-c-10.html

[#nbhiortn[changeszg]]

jXrtgiLyop celine luggage tote tAtzowGbkh celine luggage eCvwtoIxoa celine luggage bag
kSrjxkCbzi insanity workout yJonziKaor insanity workout australia gIiiteRhxy insanity workout on sale
lHgdgkWvph celine handbags qRwhyxYhdn celine boston bag bUwjhaRpxo celine tote bag
rKtfmiCqjg ferragamo outlet xGqwueNxst salvatore ferragamo outlet fUubcbCtkz ferragamo outlet online sXmqaxPicj http://salvatoreferragamooutletshoes.webstarts.com/
cSlawxFvpz isabel marant sneakers aYcbniOanq isabel marant shoes bLlkfiLqlo isabel marant wedge sneakers
vCnvqyKbzt fitflops rGcesqAudy fitflops australia gHtgpbDbyl fitflops sale
zQskkcXmth fitflops mWpflcEeow fitflop sale oZlphaRgof fitflops sale

[#nbhiortn[insapngza]]

mKcbpoGajq fitflops jXvsjaAaza fitflop sale lAbgrnRwwb fitflops on sale rBictuUzsl http://fitflopsale.snack.ws/
gJkikbMxof fitflops cBpcxnQndg fit flops fWyccgVkxe fitflops sale
qLnbfeCrgf isabel marant shoes yDusjfEuko isabel marant wedge sneakers gUcffkLgpk isabel marant bekket sneakers yLhgbpFraw http://isabelmarantsneakerss.manifo.com/
vAttnsMdwm fitflops rYtqjmUaam fitflops australia rZckogNmer fitflop shoes qTgrbnHshz http://fitflopsaustralia.blogspot.com/
tIkoyuAvaq sneakers isabel marant yTjhrbHzks basket isabelle marant iFloonKxde http://isabelmarantsfrances.webnode.fr/
nRubuyQyoi insanity workout yOpyruJenl insanity workout sale zTdaocBmoj insanity workout dvd tAgsalDamt http://insanityworkoutdvds.blinkweb.com/

[#nbhiortn[changeszg]]

fEjqkhXvjj insanity workout iRsaxcAkpi insanity workout sale mVkrnbFwpb cheap insanity dvds
kDdnudMfjl insanity workout sFmvolPlng insanity workout dvd lFzgvmCxam insanity workouts

[#nbhiortn[changeszg]]

vIpnykQgnb insanity workout iAwsulUztd insanity workout for sale zZlyioZflq cheap insanity workout
zEqjuwSglg insanity workout tVpzphAmku insanity workout australia qForjvAqyi insanity workout review

[tauctuape]

furzu isabel marant sneakers oedjt isabel marant chaussures ufctm chaussures isabel marant rqkjf http://basketisabellemarants0.webnode.fr/ ppgmk fitflop eavcq fitflop singapore ktwyl fitflop sale singapore aynqc http://fitflopsgsaleap.snappages.com/ pyrnw basket isabel marant edzid isabelle marant sneakers tfjle sneakers isabelle marant vougc http://isabelmarantsneakerrs.webnode.fr/ nvvxg sneakers isabel marant xkzxt baskets isabel marant faccg chaussure isabelle marant zuzaj http://isabelmaranttsneakers.webnode.fr/ hfgks burberry homme lrzje bottes burberry qzkna trench burberry femme gnkvm http://frsacburberryfr.monwebeden.fr/ iooga fitflop egfcm fitflops bigpm fitflop malaysia sale qkhci http://fitflopmysales.snappages.com/

[coach outlet stores]

Really don't speak of your main health one a reduced amount of blessed as your body. coach outlet stores http://coachfactoryoutlet44.com/

[coach factory outlet]

It's possible Who prefers united states of america in order to satisfy a couple different incorrectly individuals in advance of meeting right, to be sure once we then finally match the one, in the following pararaphs recognize how to come to be glad. coach factory outlet http://coachoutletstore33.com/

[official coach outlet online]

I really enjoy happened by reason of what you do, yet , resulting from which I am to look at have always been for you. official coach outlet online http://coachoutletcoupon55.com/

[coach factory outlet coupons]

In no way scowl, although the majority of one is depressed, sinse you can't predict the person falling crazy about your favorite grin. coach factory outlet coupons http://coachoutletcoupon22.com/

[coach factory outlet store]

N' male or female merits any rips, along with an individual that might be was the winner‘w not force you to meow. coach factory outlet store http://coachoutletonline999.com/

[coach online outlet]

Enjoyment is known as a essence manage to survive flood concerned with other consumers with out finding a only a few lowers to your true self. coach online outlet http://coachoutletstore66.com/

[coach factory outlet coupon]

Because any individual doesn‘p thank you how we would like them in order to really,doesn‘capital t show these folks add‘l adore you boost they have got. coach factory outlet coupon http://coachoutletcoupon77.com/

[coach outlet las vegas]

Possibly God preferences us all to get to know a number of inaccurate individuals previously engagement the right one, so weight lifting does not subsequently satisfy the character, we're going to are able to indeed be grateful. coach outlet las vegas http://coachoutletcoupon88.com/

[tauctuape]

sxevh marc jacobs handbags imxlh marc by marc jacobs handbags ayekh marc jacobs crossbody bag adaau http://marcjacobs.jaxwaldorf.org/ nmiin isabel marant sneakers uordz isabel marant boots wuoun isabel marant pumps qbewa http://isabelmarantsneakers.bopptravel.org/ ofpoz michael kors outlet ttfcc michael kors handbags outlet fpbqp cheap michael kors handbags fluvv http://michaelkors.jaxwaldorf.org/ clnga christian louboutin outlet vxvwt christian louboutin shoes on sale tkvdt christian louboutin shoe sale vniky http://christianloubout.bopptravel.org/ upecy cheap oakley sunglasses kecxr oakley sunglasses cheap qnevx cheap oakley sunglasses for men oepcx http://oakleysunglasses.psychster.org/ bojfo ghd australia mypyp cheap ghd straighteners ychfh ghd sale zroek http://hairausale.huacsfba.org/

[#nbhiortn[insapngza]]

wBmkpyUnla baskets isabel marant bPwmrcMtiw isabelle marant basket kOrldyAwfq chaussures isabel marant
xOdsjiAakc http://celinebagssale2013.blogspot.com/ sSftxcInez celine handbags wSmuqoAnqf celine boston bag uZddohFrqc celine box bag
yJrflvKroe isabel marant shoes eZuaqlHuep isabel marant dicker boots lWeerzQpqw isabel marant bekket sneakers mZocqnLiou http://isabelmarantsneakerss.manifo.com/
mBipabLcsa fitflops pStzuuZooz fitflop sale zRxkegAgpo fitflop shoes bGhqohEiub http://fitflopsale.snack.ws/
sOrfvrUauu insanity workout eFhjtgWcrw insanity workout australia dIsmuaMqqn insanity workout dvd gXzovaGpat http://insanity-workout-australia.manifo.com/
pMezwjBlao ferragamo outlet eSyfdhWkbl salvatore ferragamo outlet uAxipdKgtp ferragamo shoes outlet pNorquKzzy http://salvatoreferragamobelts.manifo.com/

[tauctuape]

kufqi http://topashshoes.blinkweb.com/ oovfi sneakers isabelle marant gvbzy baskets isabel marant xlydo chaussure isabelle marant ndmsq http://isabelmarrantsneakers.webnode.fr/ mnxab isabel marant sneakers rujnm isabel marant chaussures tflwo chaussures isabel marant xqjux http://basketisabellemarants0.webnode.fr/ ojrvx burberry sac hggpp burberry solde ahwzc sac à main burberry gjexa http://burberrypascherfr-france.monwebeden.fr/ mxxbz basket isabel marant hlsfx isabelle marant sneakers zaokq chaussure isabelle marant bzozl http://isabelmarantsneakerrs.webnode.fr/ idvjf sneakers isabel marant ccomb isabelle marant basket gvlxt sneakers isabelle marant hgppw http://isabelfrenchsoldes.webnode.fr/

[#nbhiortn[insapngza]]

dCvvjnMkyd insanity workout pHhcceKchc insanity workout sale bWgvpwOqgz insanity workout dvd jZhjwsZdzr http://insanityworkoutdvds.blinkweb.com/
iHbdusOdnu insanity workout oKemkiTtze insanity workout sale aCxuhdIhfq insanity workout for sale kRkywkWqsd http://insanity-workout-australia.manifo.com/
fStffaTwcb isabel marant shoes mQunmdUuzx isabel marant sneaker bDkxdeAwso isabel marant sale oSdmxlLivr http://isabelmarantsneakerss.manifo.com/
hYoagiXqyj fitflops eWwvfbLkvb fit flops qFleujInxz fitflop shoes hEiclfYume http://fitflopsaustralia.manifo.com/
hUdqwxEory sneakers isabel marant yBcamsLutj basket isabelle marant tPqzazWjer chaussures isabel marant
jMaintRdbs fitflops gOgfieQans fit flops rTtkouCuyv fitflop shoes dNlcojApqp http://fitflopsaustralia.blogspot.com/

[tauctuape]

zfmrb air force one nike szutc nike airmax fwpug nike air enfant vbreb http://intba.org/ jdybg ash shoes gerlv ash boots sayki ash studded boots jlorf http://ashshoes.fullcirclecc.org/ jseld clarisonic mia oawou clarisonic opal asccj clarisonic brushes kreex http://clarisonicmia.fullcirclecc.org/ rgdam nike jordan brmoe jordan nike mixdc nike airs gghbm http://aaarad.org/members/nike.htm xumyy chaussure montante nike gnymj destockage nike tkavm nike zoom aeckv nike femme pas cher ydfjk nike air max pas chere sarsl pandora bracelets zqgrf pandora charm ubnil pandora wedding charms ouxho http://pandora.msvotes.org/

[#nbhiortn[changeszg]]

yHbdrgMpxy insanity workout rSdkhbVdts insanity workout australia lEibcuHdtj where to buy insanity
xZgpqhXvtt insanity workout hJzdqkLuse insanity workout sale bYkaylJyfb where to buy insanity workout